im in a rly rly rly bad and fckdup mood right now. i donkno whats wrong with me. tell me wtf is wrong with me. maybe kaixi's right somehow. life's moving so hectic that i dont wanna catch up with everything else. im letting myself lag behind. i dont have the fucking strength to drag myself on anymore. i rly dont. its simple. i dont wanna feel the way she feels, that coach is givin up on her. did anyone friggin noticed how much she cried ? and outta those people whom actually noticed, who the hell actually gave her a pat and tell her everything is gonna be alright. hes not givin up on you, he never will and neither will we. so hang in ther. i didnt, i couldnt. i dont have that courage. everytime I see her she reminds me of me. im rly so sick and tired of everything. i dont care who loves me and who doesnt. who actually cares, who are my real friends and who aint. i dont gave a shyat now for goodness sake. i donkno what i want now, what rly matters to me and what doesnt. thers so many words in my head but i've lost them to out it all down here. everything's in a whirl, everything's so messy.
i dont have the strength to carry on anymore -